The practice is everything…and the practice of awareness is all.
I feel more grateful everyday for those challenges that the everyday life in Dublin is bringing to us. I m in permanent movie theatre watching the comedy, drama and sometimes thriller on the white screen of my life. And I love the moment when I catch myself running in the unknown street, looking for doctor for my sick child, lost little bit in translation, under heavy rain, wet cold penetrating every layer of my clothes and every kosha of my body, thinking: “What the f@@@ am I doing here? Why am I in such a horrible place? What the hell is this hell? What am I doing to my children? ”
Then I catch my own mind, and I m able to discern the negativity, the blame, the laziness to get out of my comfort zone. This is the very moment when the change operate. When the awareness is here, I see my own mind drama, and I can relax, stop to run, accept the rain, enjoy the new, and take a deep breath. My son stop to shake too, and stop to scream he is cold. We can joke and laugh together and arrive all wet and cold into the doctor waiting room.
Then again I can catch myself getting upset when we are waiting already 20 minutes while nobody is there, and I observe the arrogant Misa coming out to the light. And again in this very moment of awareness I can discern the ego playing his games, and step back, breath, wait and ask politely if the doctor will see us shortly.
The awareness and the observer attitude of our own Mind hep to keep our Heart open towards whatever and whoever happen. When we don t act from our Ego, there is plenty of room for Unconditional Love.