As most of us, with the new year I was trying to do some point after the past year and see for direction for 2013.
I hear a lot about “every day is a new day”, “Don’t make resolutions, you will not cope”… and so on. Well, I love New Year time, and for monkey mind like mine it is definitely the external reason to make a pause and see where I go and from where.
I am tired of the movement, travel and permanent change. Of course I know the impermanence is base of the human suffering and Budha talk nicely about Anicca. It reminds me a beautiful smiling girl! But yes, our existence is like a river, in every second everything change, nothing stay same, and it is foolish to attache ourselves to things that will not remind.
I believe there is the permanent centre in each of us, our Soul, Atman, our Higher Self, whatever we call it. So my intent for this new year is to come little bit closer to this stable point. To my Truth, to Unconditional Love, to the calm from the chattering of the Mind.
How do I see my INNER TRIP 2013?
First, I feel need for being less oriented on outside events, and stay focus on INSIDE PROCESS. With our recent moving to the new apartment I realised how I appreciate to stay IN instead of wandering around, my pattern when I don’t feel HOME. Moving every 2-3 years, the feeling of “home” is sometimes tricky to create, and the saying Home is where the Heart become now more then just a saying. The Soul is in our heart centre, and this year I m doing my luggages for this wonderful heart trip!
Second, I need the FOCUS. My mind and attention is often dissipated and attracted to new, to discovery, to analysing, to create. My friend and mentor wrote me New Year wishes “Have a strength to enjoy what you already did build in your life”. This is exactly the departure point in my inner trip. Focus on what IS, and step by step go deeper. We all tend to spend too much time in planning or worrying about future, some of us stay for ever in the memories and resentments from the past. It seems easy to be in the present, but observing myself for the while, I am always running for what it will be….hey girl, let go of this old pattern and enjoy the NOW!
Last but not least for my 2013 is the DISCIPLINE. Of course, i use the word often, especially when I am trying to educate my kids. Instead they are educating myself . I cannot ask them for discipline, I cannot ask it my yoga students, if I am not disciplined myself. It start with small little things and my everyday life is full of opportunity to practice. Asana practice is the pillar of it, but I will be honest: I am less interested in asanas, my biggest challenge is to sit quietly for 15 minutes per day. Let’s see how I will deal with it, as for last 18 months I am on my own with the practice and I start to see many ups and downs, many pitfalls and little viewpoints!
So, many intents, many insights, many reflections. The biggest challenge is not to have them, but not to follow the old patterns. Laziness, excuses, stress, overloading myself, butterflying around. Let’s SIT IN IT!
Happy New Year to all, may you find your stable point!