This morning I took a picture of rising shining day. It was forgetting that I am living in Ireland where the weather can change abruptly. Another thing I forget is that taking picture behind the window of cozy warm apartment is telling me nothing about outside temperature. It was freezing!
On our way to school the snow started to fall. I did not see the snow this year in Dublin City, and it is the rare phenomenon even in winter time. Surprise, surprise!
Yet the day was not finished. On my way back to school I stopped on my favourite beach to ” take a breath”. I love to practice Pranayama here. Within 5 minutes the heavy rain started!
I observed for while, get back to my car and reflected.
Life is like the weather: ever changing. Full of surprises. Sometimes we check the prevision, we make plans, but life and weather mean differently. Sometimes we forget that from the perspective of our cozy life it seems all fine and easy but once we are out of comfort zone, it is f@@@g freezing!
One moment everything is bright and happy and with one moment everything change brutally: broken heart, lost of job, illness.
We cannot change the weather same as we cannot change what life is bringing to us. But we can be ready, we can prepare for unexpected. Yoga is giving us this readiness ( Yoga starts NOW, remember Patanjali?), strong body, strong mind, awareness, balance. It is a boot camp for our life. It is our umbrella for the rain, parasol for too much heat, hat for the winter snow.
Moment of gratefulness… And the sun is back!
It is simple: we don’t.
There is something about happiness. I spent last 2months in kind of “mid – life crises” and my inner peace and balance were just not at rendez-vous. I had this feeling that something is missing, and if I do more, live differently, move somewhere else, change everything, then I will be much better, happier. I forgot the basic spiritual truth which not only I knew, but I also teach. As long as our happiness depend on external subjects prone to change, we cannot be really happy. We can be only temporally satisfied.
So I spent hours of bad mood, hours of feeling angry with the past, and hours of planning and getting anxious about the future. I became restless and impatient. Then I was daydreaming and absent. Tired. Sleepless or taking nap in the middle of the day. I stopped to eat and lost weight. I got agitated and self-centered. My Ego was just playing all dirty games of blame and resentment, discontentment and low self-esteem. Oh yes, even the innocent remarque of my kids could make me upset or sad, even crying sometimes.
Then I had rest. I had “Mi-time”. I had silence. Not just without speech, but more importantly without the mental storm. I was able to sit again on my mat or on my chair, watch by the window the sunrise, or just close my eyes and listen to the music for one hour, sometimes more.
Then the eternal truth came back. We cannot BECOME happy. We just must BE happy. We have this capacity, this warm inner feeling of wellbeing, we all knew it at least for few moments in our life. And consciously we can bring us back to this feeling, inside, without reason, just because it our birthright!